“Mum, are you sure this plane is safe?” ask big eyed Sarah “Yes, of cos it is! It’s a reputable airline!” I was in total dismay with my reply. The last thing you travel you won’t want to think too much of plane safety. Travelling back to Hong Kong today is chaotic as plane crashing where I just finished my morning meetings and of to Singapore for a 4 hours flight to pick these two monsters back to Hong Kong the very same day. So much of jet setting life. I wish I was carrying a poodle with my branded L bag in a private jet instead of two kids in tow.
“You think it’s going to crash? I was being challenged again on the question.” No! For god’s sake, why would it be?” without thinking Sarah just reply bluntly “Because your ex husband is flying the plane tonight!”
Yes, the officers are staring at us, spellbound by the conversation from Sarah…suddenly the airport’s carpet look very welcoming to me.
It may look like a very funny conversation on the above; However, Sarah was almost10 when she said that. Not being sensitive to the surroundings, you could have guessed it. I see the word autism ringing in your head.
I remember the difficulty bringing her places, because of my own issues of inferiority as a working mother… Concerns that were often reinforced by people’s judgmental comments, cruel looks, and having no explanation for it… there was this beautiful, loving, amazing little girl here, that I was in total denial about. Eventually though, denial grew into suspicion, as our parental instincts finally won out. Finally came the guilt, as I realized I were in way over my heads at most times ., as I sat in the Dr.’s office, between my ex husband , my daughter’s psychologist ; and gripped each of their hands, I heard the words, “Autism Spectrum Disorder,” and dissolved nicely…that was 8 years ago.
Written by Ivy